itsanuphillslope.butiwontloosehope

2008-01-11T05:53:00.000-08:00

School term has started again... so here begins my 4th term at SMU. I hope it passes fast, for more reasons than one. Take care everyone... doubt i'll be blogging much this term. :)

2007-12-23T01:01:00.000-08:00

back from Hong Kong! it was really fun :D all our kids won medals and we got 3 all around champions althogether :) so proud and happy for them!

Felicia, Reese, Nadia and Arielle... aren't they darling in the tracksuits? :p

Ocean Park!! it was good fun :) dolphin show, roller coasters, underwater world, etc...

The girls i coach who went to HK... level 2s :)

Yesterday, it was back in the gym again. Only half of the girls turned up and we had a really fun and relaxing training... Im so happy that Rhianne managed to do a back handspring by herself!! really fast... we've only been working on it for less than 10 lessons? and Reese, Felicia and Rhianne can stand cartwheel on the low beam... it was only their 1st try yesterday! :D coaching is very rewarding :)

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve... So here's wishing everyone a very Merry Christmas and an Awesome new year! Peishan is coming back tomorrow, wei has a week off, and stacy promised to meet in the 1st week of jan. plus gym christmas party, chalet at sentosa... Im an extremely happy girl :)

2007-12-11T19:49:00.000-08:00

Firstly, Congratulations! to Team Singapore Gymnastics on their oh-SO-FABULOUS and AMAZING performance at the SEA Games!! 4 Golds, 3 Silvers and a Bronze... thats just incredible! :D :D Team Singapore on the whole is doing pretty well too, higher than usual on the medal tally :)
My holidays have been pretty great so far... coaching, shopping, enjoying... feels pretty busy but doing things that i don't get to do much during the school term! went to Bintan last week from wed-fri. The weather wasn't too good but i think we had fun anyways :) my favourite part was sitting in the knee deep sea-water catching fish! :) I actually brought them all the way back to Singapore before realising what a stupid idea that was and dumped them into the sea at the ferry terminal.
We're off to Hong Kong in 2 days!! so exciting!! Last training for the kids tonight! Chu Laoshi and I have been working hard with them, hope they'll do well :) nevertheless, it'll be fun with my favourite girls :) and shopping!

:: raging battle between the head and the heart :: :(

2007-11-28T20:50:00.000-08:00

29th November... One day before my dad's birthday, also my old maid's birthday. It's been 8 years since she has left, and i wonder where she is, how she is, is she still well??
Aunty Min took care of me since I was 2 months old, bringing me to kindergarden, walking with my to school everyday while i was in primary school, cooking my meals for me, sitting through my trainings. and later, when i got older i remember coming home from training close to 11pm every night and the 1st thing i would do when i get home is to go to her room to look for her.
She went back to Phillipines when i was 12 (she was 50+ then), and we've lost contact since. I have no idea how to contact her. I think to myself, will the next time we meet be in heaven? The thought both charms and scares me.

Happy Birthday Aunty Min, where ever you are... :) I pray that you know I'm thinking of you... and wishing you well on your birthday.

2007-11-04T19:22:00.000-08:00

:: i'm head over heels and it shows ::

2007-11-01T08:07:00.000-07:00

sometimes, you don't know why some things happen until a loooonng time later. i'm glad i do now, finally.

i've heard time and time again how useful economics is. today, we had a guest speaker for our macroecons class and she repeated this... and she told us how we made the right choice. i totally agree that economics is useful, but despite that, i also realised that it's not for me.

2007-10-26T19:08:00.000-07:00

it's a 7-day week in school this week... the thought of it is just so depressing :( but no choice, becos of projects and all... im so excited that my final paper will be over in 5 weeks time! then HK here i (we) come!! :D
been preparing the level 2 girls for the competition... altho its quite challenging, it's super fun! i feel that this is one of the best periods of time i'll have coaching the level 2s... they're young enough to be super cute n learn skills fast and just old enough to listen to instructions much better than they did last year. plus they're used to chu laoshi and my way of coaching and i've also become pretty comfortable working with them after more than a year!
i've gotta skip their training this afternoon cos im going to JB to attend my cousin's wedding! should be interesting ;) but im bringing my macro notes just in case!
take care everyone... and God Bless!

2007-10-21T05:00:00.000-07:00

I'm finally blogging, mainly cos I'm procrastinating doing my MPW Reflection... hmm school is going fine... 4 modules has been managable so far, and my life is still quite relaxing. But for the next few weeks projects and presentations abound. The thought of the upcoming december hols will be pulling me through tho! :)

:: If you're sure this is what you really want, you've got to do your best to make it work :: and i will.

2007-09-20T06:23:00.000-07:00

The past few days have been wonderful, in a normal sort of way... appreciating that life is going smoothly :) sometimes, i remind myself that i should treasure what i have now, but when i try to do that, i usually end up feeling a little depressed... cos the only way i can imagine appreciating what i have now is imagining what it would be like if i don't have these things, which makes me really sad... and afraid.
I'm totally loving taking 4 mods... i bet if i could do 4 mods through my life at SMU, i might be able to love SMU! haha... it's so comparatively fun and relaxing :D

Anyways, the rest of this post shall be dedicated to Reese, becos i love teaching her so much :D Reese is the 1st kid i fell in love with at Bazgym... initially when i started work at Baz i only did administrative work. but after i met her and the coaches formed a class of young competitive girls which included her and 6 other girls, i decided to start coaching cos they're just so cute! Have not regretted since!
This is Reese's learning curve (pink) compared to the rest of the girls (blue).
y=progress
x=time

When she is on the flat portion, it is rather terrible for the coaches. she doesn't focus at all and spends the whole lesson either pouting or disturbing her friends. after a few weeks or even months of such attitude, you get rather exasperated with her despite her adorability... and just when you think you can't take any more, a different Reese emerges (anytime, anyday...). the transformation is really amazing, she's like a totally different person. she's super obedient, receptive and tries the hardest out of everyone. the past time it happened, chu laoshi and i kept asking her if there's anything wrong. it's really “乖得吓人”, as chu laoshi would say. every time it happens, we'll be amazed at how talented she is and love her even more.
Reese has a younger sister Arielle, who is also adorable and a level lower than Reese. We wonder who will be the better one in the future (10 years from now). i watch Reese's and Arielle's development with excitement... God Bless the girls, now and always :)

Clockwise from top left: Reese on beam, Arielle and Reese, Reese (taken last year), Reese (taken this year)

2007-09-09T08:40:00.000-07:00

It's been a pretty packed week. Over the weekend, I watched the ballet "The Legacy of Goh Choo San" twice at the Esplanade. I always knew that I was somehow related to Mr Goh Choo San, but never knew exactly how. So I went on a quest to figure out how exactly I am related to this man who's picture hangs on a dozen lampposts in Orchard Road and the Goh Family, "Singapore's undisputed first family of dance".
Through a book on Goh Choo San, newpaper articles, the programme as well as my dad, I learnt many new things about my family that I didn't know. It turns out that Mr Goh, who past away 20 years ago, is my grandfather's (my mom's dad) step-brother. My grandfather (who past away when i was a baby) was the oldest son of 10 children in the family and he, the youngest. I also learnt that my grandaunty Mdm Goh Soo Khim (who I probably know best among the 10 siblings) is the youngest daughter and the co-founder of Singapore Dance Theatre. Another 2 siblings own ballet schools in Canada and one of their daughters, Goh Chan-Hon, is a principal dancer in the National Ballet of Canada. Chan-Hon performed at last weekend's ballet and she is InCreDiBLe! amazing to watch.
It is sad that I hardly know this part of my family... hardly see them, not even once a year, and half of them are not in Singapore. Most can't recognise me cos the last time we met was when i was little and of course, I hardly even recognise them! It feels strange... and overwhelming amongst this family of over-achievers.

On a brighter note, I met up with my old teammates and coaches (not that I don't see them very often) this evening... to celebrate my birthday in advance! haha... yes its quite kua zhang... but it is also cos Sanmay is going back to UK next week! :( boohoo... hmm anyways, it was fun... i got presents! (:

Nice pic of Chu laoshi, Sanmay, Meiling, Wen Si and Stacy (:

not-so-nice pic of everyone (:

2007-08-27T07:47:00.000-07:00

a quick look at the past week... didn't realise i did so much stuff until i looked at the photos! see thats one of the things that irritates me about life now... i can hardly recall what i've done, even if it's less than a week ago!

In chronological order...

We sent Peishan off at the airport on tuesday night...

We celebrated Mei Ling's birthday on wednesday... Went to Kushin Bo which is a Japanese buffet... It's really good I highly recommend it. But my stomach has not felt the same since then.

We celebrated Chu Laoshi's birthday 3 times!

On friday at Bazgym with the level 3s and 4s...

On Sunday we went for steamboat buffet at Marina... Yum!!

And this evening we celebrated her birthday for the 3rd time! Actual day (:

2007-08-24T20:30:00.000-07:00

I just can't helping thinking, what's the point?

Maybe it isn't about being happy and living a good life and all that...
Maybe it's just doing wrong to the people who have 'invested' in you, unfair to those who are counting on you and inconsiderate to those precious few who do care about you, if your life ends... before it's suppose to.

I'm feeling this almost constant negative feeling in me. Sometimes, after certain events, it's a little more intense, somtimes it lets up when I receive good news. Is this how life is going to be from now on? I hope not. It feels intolerable.

Or maybe, maybe this is just a transition period, in which your mindset changes to adjust to and accept the realities of life. Maybe someday, someday I'll get used to it, and realise that life is worth living, after all.

2007-08-23T09:06:00.000-07:00

1st week of school is over... only had lessons from mon to wed so it was a really short week... went by quite alright. i think im rather going to enjoy marketing and MPW (: im so in the wrong course.
we've finalised the namelist for the Hong Kong competition in december... 5 of my level 2s are going! im SO HAPPY! :D :D :D hahaha... only small problem is that 2 girls, nadia and qiyan, who are p1 and p4 respectively, are going alone without their parents so looks like i have got to be a 24hr babysitter again!! which means that my shopping will be greatly compromised. hahaha...
oh yes, i absolutely HAVE to go and watch the Summer Olympics in Beijing next year! If the worlds team is any prediction of who is gonna be in the olympic team next year, i'll be one happy woman! my all time favs Nastia and Ivana, as well as beautiful Shayla Worley are all in the USA worlds team. and i've been watching a lot of videos of the chinese gymnasts on you tube lately, and they're really really amazing! can't wait to book my tickets!!

2007-08-13T01:31:00.000-07:00

Yesterday we met up before Peishan leaves for NY next week... it was a rare gathering for us! :D

We went to Cafe Iguana... my 1st time! thought it was a pretty nice place. In the picture: Chris, me, Meiling, Sanmay, Jon, Peishan, Wei, Gabriel

I, Sanmay and Wei :D

Then we went to K-Box... my 1st time there too! haha... Old teammates: Meiling, Peishan, Wei, Me, Sanmay and Wensi. Love them!

This photo makes me laugh! ^_^

:: Life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you ::

2007-08-09T03:32:00.000-07:00

watching the NDP now... I wish I thought it earlier to book a hotel room nearby to watch. that would be cool... still have at least 4 more yrs to do it, but this yr im so freeeee. haha... next year i hope to go watch the beijing olympics! [365 days to the 2008 Summer Olympics!!] Plus, rachel's dad invited me to go to USA again, so if melissa can go after her 'A's next year dec will be a good time to go... then can go skiing!! :D omy, so many places i wanna go, no moneh!!

2007-08-02T08:11:00.000-07:00

whats new?

- ended my RJ PE stint on tuesday... i get to get up late again! i must say i had fun and enjoyed this month a lot more than i did when i was teaching last year, but i'm glad to have my weekdays back! (:
- daddy's back from japan! and he brought back lots of nice stuff (:
- level 2s are increasing training! yayy! been begging for this (discreetly) since the beginning of the year :P
- i went for my 1st driving lesson today! it was quite fun, but was quite nervous behind the wheel... hope i get use to it soon!
- Mom converted some video cassettes of gym comps that i asked chu laoshi for into DVD. it cost a lot of money but i hope its worth it! old gym teammates of mine, please contact me if you wanna watch or copy! it has many people from like gladys to yi qing in it (:
- Bazgym may be going to Hong Kong for a competition at the end of the year! hopehopehope!

2007-07-27T08:03:00.000-07:00

been wanting to do this for some time... so here it is finally. Montage of Singapore Gymnastics Girls (:

2007-07-25T08:03:00.000-07:00

Oikos! 07 is over. I think it went alright... Nothing fantastic but not disastrous either. As i reflect back on the camp, something funny i realised was that after the camp, i felt no sense of accomplishment or satisfaction at all. i find it queer cos it's quite a big event with lots of preparation and massive amount of manpower. i did not even feel any sense of relief. If you're expecting an explanation here, there is none. i can't figure it out myself. i only know i went home feeling extremely tired, heavy-hearted and confused. and that this post is almost a complete opposite from my high-spirited one after last yr's camp.
3 more weeks till school starts. . . . . .

2007-07-16T18:44:00.000-07:00

"Tough to get good grades, but happiest undergrads are from …

In a Straits Times’ poll of 300 undergraduates, SMU students emerged as the most overwhelmingly positive about their campus life, particularly praising the social scene, environment and professors. "

-TST

I can't believe it.

2007-07-07T05:40:00.000-07:00

Im back in RJ relief teaching PE! haha... Yes, you did remember correctly, i pretty much hated it when i was there last year. But, it's too good a money making opportunity to miss this holidays. So when Ms Koh asked if I was free to go back, I agreed with little hesitation. Anyway, it's just for a month. So far, it's been alright... quite fun. The other day I even got to wear a bright green vest cos I was in the evacuation team during the fire drill. dam cool la! haha... My table is one of the very few that don't have the internet cable... UPSET la :( haha...
Been pretty busy lately with the new job, more part-time jobs and catching up with friends :) About 1 and a half months of school hols left. I'm very excited about the next few weeks with mock camp, nationals and oikos itself! Ohya, this morning I went to help out with the SEA Games trials, haven't seen the girls for quite some time... They're really good... Chu Laoshi asked me if I felt any itch to compete or whatever and the answer was a straight, unquestionable NO. They're training now is so so so much tougher than ours last time... When I see the expression on their faces, my heart honestly aches. I can feel their tiredness and pressure. Especially today when Tabbi stopped her floor routine halfway becos of miscommunication and Zhao laoshi scolded her, I felt so bad... Just seeing the expression on her face was painful to me. Like, she's already so stressed and upset still scold until so fierce?
But I guess I have no right to be judgemental. It's just that the feelings I felt when i was watching them today were so overwhelming today that I felt like blogging. They were really really good tho, a joy to watch! I took some vids, may make them into a video to post soon!

2007-06-24T07:05:00.000-07:00

More than half of the summer hols is gone... I seem to be getting busier lately, which is good I guess... Spending lots of time with gym, im currently coaching at 4 places: Bazgym (mine plus some of chu laoshi's classes), SMU recre gym, volunteering at Beyong Social Services and working at Gym Kidz for these few weeks. Whew. But it's fun - I love it! Never thought I'd ever spend so much time on gym when i declared it out of my life 2 and a half years ago.
Gonna enjoy the rest of my hols!

2007-06-18T07:52:00.000-07:00

Me with young chinese gymnasts

got chalk?

happiness!

very pro

:)

2007-06-17T02:36:00.000-07:00

vid of our trip!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W0p33rGAOXI

2007-06-15T08:26:00.001-07:00

The China trip was Awesome!! The chinese gymnasts were super good and we had a lot of fun sight-seeing and shopping... I'll put some photos up soon. Meanwhile, a video of the rhythmic gymnasts in Guizhou... they're beautiful!

2007-05-30T22:45:00.000-07:00

i've almost forgotten i have a blog... i have still kinda been doing nothing (besides coaching 2-3 times a week, oikos and preparing for the china trip) but have somehow managed to reconcile with myself that i deserve a break. besides, working doesn't seem to be much fun for those who are doing it.
oh yes, we met Tommy and Serena, our 'host' when we were in Cambodia yesterday... It was really cool seeing them in singapore. i dont know, i guess it's cool seeing people you thought you would never see again. haha... anyway, seeing them and especially listening to them talk somehow makes me feel really blessed (:
leaving for china on tuesday! im so excited!! our flight from guangzhou to guizhou got cancelled so we'll be staying in guangzhou for one night before flying off the guizhou the next morning... all the better! one night of shopping and free stay in guangzhou :D

"doing nothing seems like such fun till you're actually doing it."

2007-05-23T09:29:00.000-07:00

Yunnan Gymnastics Training - taken when we were there in 2001.

2007-05-22T01:41:00.000-07:00

I have a spelling checker,
it came with my PC:
it plainly marks four my revue
mistakes i cannot sea.
I've run this poem threw it,
I'm sure your please to no,
It's letter perfect in it's weigh,
my checker tolled me sew.

-Penny Harper

2007-05-18T09:20:00.000-07:00

Went back to RJ to watch R Project this evening w Wensi & Gary... 1st time back since i stopped relief-teaching PE there a year ago. As usual, it was so good to be back! Really miss the place! and it was a really good event, i feel really proud to be a rafflesian and to see that the new batches are doing such a good job keeping up the name of Raffles (:
YEA!

The Rafflesian Spirit

2007-05-06T05:45:00.000-07:00

This evening i've been looking through the videos of our past training that Mr Au passed me today. I'm guessing that I've been watching us in 2002, preparing for Asian Schools... hard to imagine, that was half a decade ago.
I couldn't help laughing at the 'serious' moments that seem so funny now... feeling the warmth of our friendship from our cheering and applause for one another and touched seeing how in the background we were genuinely happy when our teammate performed a skill successfully... another thing was, i was glad to see that we often smiled after performing a routine or a skill, even when we failed at it - at least, we were having fun in the gym, our 2nd home where we spent hours every day. feeling a bit of grief for the footage not taken, enormous relief at the precious skills and training captured... many thanks to Mr Au and Mr Sng for taking those videos of us!
Tomorrow I'm going to start sieving through the Yunnan training videos... i bet that will bring back even more memories (:

2007-04-29T06:31:00.000-07:00

SACAC was super tiring, but super fun! the level 1s were absolutely Adorable!! many people said so! haha... they were so happy and bubbly throughout the competition and you just never know what funny antics they're going to do next to stun the judges and even their own coaches! like when athena scrambled on all 4s up the beam when it was her turn to go, or when they look all over the place when they're up on the beam during the competition.
im abit disappointed with how the level 2s did, but they are still (very) young, i guess i gotta be patient!

Bazgym Gymnastics... our girls are ~~better~~ cuter than yours!
Next year, they will be better too!

Our littlest ones!

Level 1s with chu laoshi

incredibly difficult to get a good picture with 12 hyper level 2s!

Level 3s

will upload more when i get them!

2007-04-21T08:25:00.000-07:00

got this from christine's blog! lookie all the stuff i got at tramp comp!

(For those who don't know, i didn't even compete. just having fun posing with other ppl's prizes) Good job y'all! (:

2007-04-20T08:56:00.000-07:00

2 of the reasons I love it at Bazgym (:

This picture is Priceless. Arielle is the cutest thing!! <3

Ying En... Beautiful

2007-04-12T08:09:00.000-07:00

hols are here!! 4 months!! gonna enjoy!! but of cos must do some productive stuffs also la... i try. but for now, just enoying coaching and reading and relaxing!
this afternoon i started reading my 1st story book in a long long time. when i started reading, my hand itched for a highlighter and i honestly was suppressing my brain from thinking "ok what are the main points here"... omggg.... so sad :(

2007-04-11T07:34:00.000-07:00

just saw a documentary. the snow leopard chase the poor dear. then the poor dear got bitten by the leopard on the backside.

me: "oh no oh no oh no!!"
dad: "sure catch one la"
me: "aahhh!!! cannot!"

then after chasing for quite long (they were on the mountains, very beautiful btw) the dear managed to escape by jumping into the river

me: "yay!!!"
dad: "lucky this time"
the guy on the documentary: "and she goes home empty handed"
dad: "see now her family got nothing to eat"
me: :(

sucks.

last paper tomorrow!!! YEAA!!!!

2007-04-07T22:30:00.000-07:00

"several experiments compared recall after an interval spent awake with recall and an equal interval spent sleeping. If the passgae of time were all that mattered or forgetting, then performance would be the same in these two cases. But it was not. The group that slept during the retention interval remembered more than the group that stayed awake. Presumably, the group that stayed awake experienced interference- new ideas and events somehow interfered with their recall." - from my psych textbook.
Considering I'm averaging 2 naps + 1 sleep a day i'll say im well on my way for scoring during finals! wahahaha.
If only.

2007-04-06T06:16:00.000-07:00

hmm... 3 days to exams... how do i feel? lost, scared, panicky, and a bit don't carish.
I find my studying process slightly amusing. I see people in school at 9am studying till 9pm, or those who start at 5pm, and end at 5am the next day... They rush meals and are don't even have their laptops one.
Me? I try to fit in with the early types, waking up at 8am and feeling extremely grumpy, make my way to school and take about 2 hours to be awake enough to start studying. by the time i get my notes organised and my butt comfortable, it'll be about 10.30am. then i'll do some work till 12pm when my stomach starts distracting me and reminding me it's lunchtime. after taking half an hour to bug my study buddy(ies) to go for lunch and having lunch it'll be about 2. then i'll feel sleepy so i'll decide to nap till 3. of cos, i'll overnap and wake up at 330, then take half an hour to start studying again. so it's 4pm and i've done almost nothing. naturally, the next step would be to start panicking, so i dedicate half an hour to 45 mins of my time to do that.
5pm, if i don't have to go to bazgym, i can get some work done before dinner at about 630. if im working, i'll make my way to bazgym and that will be the end of my studying for the day, becos everyone knows, i dont study after 9pm.
so this is the story of my study break.

im so screwed.

P.S. i LOOVVEE my now level 2s! I can't wait for exams to be over so i can focus on Them. but im not going to miss any trainings for exams. yea!

2007-04-01T09:04:00.000-07:00

ahh.... study week! 8 days to study for 3 papers. think this will be one of the 'slackest' terms i will have in SMU. that's why i can afford to go for 3 birthday parties this week! but it's back to work tomorrow, i hope...
will still be coaching tho... level 1s & 2s are both training 3 times a week now, so i'll be coaching quite abit!
this entry is quite crappy but i just wanna write something to move the pictures down so i can see my nice new background. haha...
All the Best to those having exams! God Bless!

2007-03-27T22:36:00.000-07:00

all presentations for term 2 are over, hooray! only left with finals now... so fast!
i haven't been studying for almost a week, been doing projects and coaching more classes... gonna try to start studying soon.

last night we celebrated the Mr Sng's birthday, it was great!

we had noodles, black pepper crab, cockles, prawns, mutton, frog leg, pork and veg!
the food was so yummy, wish i could cook as well as chu laoshi!

wonderful wonderful people!

great food + great people= one helluva time! (:

2007-03-13T08:58:00.000-07:00

I need to spend more time at home
Need more time for myslef
Need to be nicer to everyone
Need to do things I love and for the people who I love
Need to stay strong despite knowing I'm not able to do these things...
Not yet.

2007-03-11T07:54:00.000-07:00

past few days... thurs micro econs presentation finally over... went for massage at night it was SHIOK. recre gym on fri had good business but it was chaotic. gotta think about a proper system for it or something...
judged at Prime yest & today. took awhile to get the hang of judging again... i loved judging the level 1s, they're adorable! received news that for SACAC no 10 start value... so we've got to shift all our older level 1s to level 2! aaahhh! after training the routines for about a month already... haha but im quite excited about the challenge, i think they can do it!
next 4 weeks are gonna be super busy... will be blogging less... take care ppl!

2007-03-05T07:37:00.001-08:00

oops. just realised those overlapping pictures kinda give u a headache. sorry! but im too computer illiterate to know how to make it better.

2007-03-05T07:25:00.000-08:00

so tired. so many things to do next 2 weeks are totally packed. went to Baz in a bad mood and let my temper out on those poor things. some pics from today...

3 of our new level ones... Arielle, Renee and new fav Athena!

Arielle is my long love

Sister Reese

2007-03-04T01:56:00.000-08:00

"... He will teach us what He wants us to do; we will walk in the paths He has chosen." -Isaiah 2:3

2007-02-26T06:36:00.000-08:00

Today was a pretty bad 1st day of the 2nd half of the school term. I'm getting more & more scatterbrain. ughs. forgot so many things today, worst of all, left my precious laptop in class after LTB this morn, then went to the gym... only after i showered then i realised that my laptop was not in my bag, so i ran back to SOB to look for it. sat outside the classroom for almost 2 hours cos there was a class going on, and thankfully (x100000) it was still there when i went into the class. (Thanks so much Deep!)
Went to the gym after that. The new little level 1s were so high and were so tough to control! but they are still cute. haha... then after class, Reese's mom realised that Reese's schoolbag was missing, she left it outside the gym. They could not find it so they left. After a few minutes, some of the people who work at Spans (where the gym is) found it in one of the guy's toilet. every single thing in the bag was emptied into the dustbin. from her textbook to clothes to pencils to lunchbox... everything! i was so horrified, and sad...

2007-02-25T03:58:00.000-08:00

Hello!! :D I did up 4 of the Level 4s beam routines today! My 1st time cheorographing beam routines... haha... Really fortunate to have Ying En & Ying Rou, they make any kind of dance look nice... haha... The "xiao xiao yi ji" (small small level ones) start their extra training for competition tomorrow!! Im so excited! I swear they are even cuter then the xiao yi ji! Arielle and 4 more... I've only seen them a couple of times but they have already stolen my heart. hahaha... Things are looking up at Bazgym!
School... starts tomorrow... Booooo. haha... next 2 weeks will be ok, i think... then after that it'll be tough, but nevermind, I CAN DO IT! I'll make it to enjoy my 4 months break. muaha. project K exhibition the next 3 days, and next next weekend im judging at Prime (: haven't judged in awhile, hope i haven't forgotten much.

2007-02-17T08:17:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year people! *oink* to the pig year! reunion dinner just now, realise that every year the number of people at my grandparent's reunion dinner diminishes... there used to be 7 cousins at the reunion dinner, now only left me & 2 others, the rest are married. I spent a part of my time there tutoring my p3 cousin maths, & spent the rest of the evening watching tv & being a little bored. Kudos to my other older cousin tho, who spent hours playing some game that made no sense whatsoever to me with my younger cousin. Dont know how he did it.
Now. i find it ridiculous that not checking my email for 9 hours makes me hopelessly outdated. ughs. Not a very nice feeling. haha...
Next 2 days, visiting... in between have to squeeze in some work. and then will get sucked back into school + projects etc with hopefully a mixture of some leisure time. i say a suedo break is better than no break at all!

Indeed I'm Blessed! (:

2007-02-13T00:17:00.000-08:00

long time no see. it's the week before recess! thankfully, this term's week 7 is not as bad as last term's. comms presentation is over. was pretty nervous during the presentation and am really glad that it's over! in fact, i think it was quite traumatic. haha.
micro on thursday! seems impossible for me to even get a passing grade. yikes. i seriously can't wait for the recess break! i want to have some fun and relaxing time. didn't go to baz yesterday for the level 1 class cos of comms presentation today. quite sad since i wont be seeing them for a while because of CNY break.
competition season is coming up, how exciting! and, bazgym might be planning a training trip to china!! cool right? i hope that it happens! and i want to book my tickets for beijing olympics like Now! haha.
i guess besides for micro mid-terms on thursday, things are going alright (:

"Hard work spotlights the character of people: some turn up their sleeves, some turn up their noses, and some don't turn up at all."
- Sam Ewing

2007-01-29T06:07:00.000-08:00

today was an eventful day. i saw myself in new, different perspective. haha... 1st up, LTB poster presentation... it went smoothly. after class, i Finally managed to contact Rainbow Centre, so our project is Finally confirmed!! Yay. what a weight off my mind...
and then, it was the inter school tug-of-war. it was really fun, and tiring! haha... beat 3 teams in the preliminaries but lost to SISS in the finals. and i feel quite bad cos during that round i feel flat on my face so couldn't pull anymore. and in team events, you just kinda feel that its your fault that the team lost. hais. but anyway, it was fun la. and i realised how comparatively small and light i am. ha ha.
rushed off to Bazgym after. chulaoshi showed me my p5 floor routine and OMG i was so cute then! haha! seriously! i have Got to get the tape from her and transfer them to VCDS. precious precious memories! haha...
ok im really tired now so i'll end off here. can feel the work piling up!! >.<

:: All i need to know is if it's for sure, then i'll give all the love in the world ::

2007-01-26T18:39:00.000-08:00

sometimes, i really wonder if i know what i'm doing.

i know that this is an absolutely crucial term for me if i want to keep my double degree. so what would a normal or sensible person in my shoes do? drop unnecessary activities and focus on schoolwork, of course. well, apparently, i don't have the sense of a normal person.

what have i gotten myself into this term?
1) Bazgym (level 1s plus helping to do up level 4s routines)
2) Oikos!
3) Tuition
4) Recreational Gymnastics @ SMU

not to mention 5 mods (LTB, Comms, FA, Micro & intro psych).
last night, received news that im helping with editing for project K.
I'm not a miracle. Something's gotta give.

2007-01-20T05:10:00.000-08:00

hi. time for an update. im sick. again!! its like the 3rd time in the month after coming back from cambodia. maybe im more suited for life there, since i was well there. hmm.
today my heart broke. the level 1 routine has spilts in them and some of the level 1s are pretty inflexible, so today, chulaoshi took desperate measures and pushed them all the way down in overspilts (means more than spilt by putting one of your legs on a mat) and my dear rhianne cried!! her eyes were red for half an hr and she was so unlike her usual bubbly and smiley self through training. ohdear. but no choice la, for her own good. :(
hope everyone is well (:

2007-01-11T06:43:00.000-08:00

am really hating life right now. takes more & more effort to be happy, and sometimes, i don't even want to be.
i want the simple life of the gym, working with children and teaching what i love. without the complications, the uncertainty, the frustration, the unfairness, the anger, the stress, the tears. Pure hard work suits me fine.
will things ever get better?

i've got to learn to be more observant.

2007-01-06T02:44:00.000-08:00

now that it's the end of week 1 of term 2 and i've more or less recovered from my stomach/gastric flu, i guess it's time for an update.
this term, besides the 5 modules that im doing, my other main commitments will be (in no particular order) preparing the Bazgym Level 1s and 4s for SACAC competition, Project K's documentation, starting of recreational gymnastics in SMU and being in the programmes committee for Oikos 07. quite a handful, i must say.
i've had a taste of everything since the start of school, and im excited about every one of them! that's why i can't drop any, though i do think that it's abit too much to handle, considering i didn't do very well last term. but this term i feel more mentally prepared, not like term 1 where i spent most of the ~~start of~~ school term freaking out. haha

2007-01-01T05:29:00.000-08:00

my first entry of 2007! im going to turn 20 this year, imagine that! haha... can hardly believe it. the last few days have been good. good meals and had the chance to meet up with people i haven't met with in a while...
it's back to school in one day! actually will be going back to school tomorrow la, but not counted. anyway, my gpa last sem was really bad, but i'll do better this year. it's time to stop slacking and be really serious about the various issues in my life. after all, im going to turn 20 this year! haha...
i feel like i haven't been very disciplined since i left the national team... i want get back into shape again. feel like the me last time has not been around... looking at my past notes on training, newspaper clippings, even the trophies i walk past everyday, i can hardly recognise myself. the more i demand of myself, the more fulfilling the year will be. felt this year past really quickly, and feel like i didn't do much this year. probably because i've been slacking away. well, next year will be different!

have a great year ahead, everyone, and God Bless!

"Remember that happiness is a way of travel, not a destination."
-Roy Goodman

2006-12-25T03:04:00.000-08:00

im back! haha... arrived at about 11am yesterday morning, mom picked me from the airport, and we had lunch there... was so tired i slept the whole afternoon, then had friends over for christmas eve at night, it was fun! really happy to be back. tho the 20 days there seemed to pass quickly, it's wonderful to be home again!
i don't have internet access at home now, so everytime i use the net im at someone esle's house. at my grandma's house now... these few days are great, meeting up with people and having no worries... ah, this is the life! enjoy before school starts again...
the trip was really good, the project a success. i had loads of fun throughout and experienced many things. i hope to remember the things i've seen and learned there. i'll post pictures up when i have faster connection, then will tell 'stories' with the pictures, which would be alot easier to remember what to say and make it more interesting for others too! haha...
meanwhile, MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!
God Bless!

:: keep that breathless charm ::

2006-12-03T16:20:00.000-08:00

off to cambodia tomorrow! im excitednervousanxiou&salilscared... quite tired from the activities of the past few days, what with the BGS report and econs chalet and trying to do some catching up before going to cambodia. need some rest this afternoon! then will pop by at RI (haven't been there in Ages) and go for my last coaching with the level 1s till after christmas! Boo... i'll miss them!!! alright, happy holidays to all!

:: you're too good to be true ::

2006-11-27T22:32:00.000-08:00

went to baz last night. rebelling against the muggerism of smu, where people mug from day to night, and way past midnight. haha... nah just kidding, i wanted to go cos i was sick of studying and coaching never fails to brighten my week! had fun playing on the tumble track too (: the girls were good last night, couple of parents asked if we were going to increase the training time for the level 1s. haha that would be cool :D next year gonna start preparing for competitions already. yea! and the pre-level 1s, they're so adorable too!
in a week's time i'll be in cambodia. so don't forget and wonder why i've disappeared and stuff... probably be Most accessible through email, but not sure if have computer and internet to use also. will be back on christmas eve! dont forget to invite me to ur christmas parties... haha.

:: did you ever know that you're my hero? you're everything i wish i could be ::

2006-11-21T20:53:00.000-08:00

i cannot care how i perform for finals anymore. i feel like i've been squeeze dry, so even if i do embarassingly badly, it's just too bad. especially when im competing with people 2-3 papers when i have 4 papers... ugh.
but seriously, don't think i would freaking care about my results in cambodia with no food or warm water or air-con. ha.

2006-11-20T23:28:00.000-08:00

i think im generally perceived as the happy-go-lucky, loves life type of person, and i am, but there are times that i feel my life is seriously screwed up.
i find it ridiculous to spend minimal time with my family and extended family for the main reason of being 'busy', i hate the constant tension between family/friends and schoolwork, and that most of the time im pressured to choose the latter over the former, i hate it that i have to study till i feel sick, hate it that there is so much more to life but all i see ahead is mugging... and the exams, that im simply not enjoying the things im doing, but doing them because i 'have to'.
it's hard to find meaning in life, i feel it's just an endless blur of stress, projects, assignments and arguments.
maybe that's the reason im clutching on so tightly to coaching and my girls... they are possibly the only things that i get to do now that i truly love... and also the reason im constantly looking for things to love...
having said all that, i must qualify that i do know im very lucky compared to many people... i pray that i will be able to live my life to the fullest, and so will the people around me.

:: you always smile but in your eyes sorrow shows ::

2006-11-18T19:54:00.000-08:00

1 more week to exams! ughs, no time to study... 2 weeks & 2 days before we go to cambodia... thats even shorter than the time we are going to spend there *gasp*

2006-11-12T19:18:00.000-08:00

christmas is coming! i feel happy just saying that, it's such a happy time of the year... with the nice christmas decorations at orchard and all the shopping centres blasting merry cheesy christmas songs :D too bad i won't be enjoying much of the pre-christmas spirit this year... exams start in exactly 2 weeks till the 30th, then have to complete the crazy BGS research paper by the 4th, not to mention the tons of 'last minute' preperations for project K, and we're off on the 5th! & back on christmas eve. im honestly quite nervous about the trip, but shall not worry too much about it yet.
watched the apprentice last night, guess what it reminded me of? smu! haha... what with the PROJECTS and deadlines and teams... haha... felt that my life is relatively calmer after i watched the show tho, i should watch it more often. i like reality shows!

:: woke up this morning with this feeling, something good's gonna come my way ::

2006-11-04T04:13:00.000-08:00

im so tired. yesterday during BGS i felt like i was spending all my energy trying to keep my eyeballs in place (& not let it roll back into my head) the whole time. i know it sounds highly gross, but that was how i felt! next week is week 12 already, just a few more weeks before term ends, super fast! blogging is one of the few times i take a step back to look at life as a bigger picture rather then endlessly trying to squeeze all projects, homework, work and sleep into my schedule. am i getting use to smu? i suppose so, tho its in no way getting less tough. next term's timetable is out. i have exactly the same classes as karene and jiayu. COOL :D haha... will bid for 2 more, whether i take 4 or 5 mods next term is yet to be known. but i shudder to think of another term of insane 5 mod schedule. or is it that all terms in smu will be like this? i think it's the latter. dam.
the consistently bright points of my week are (of course) coaching. the girls are improving steadily, im so glad (: thankfully, aud & my efforts to get rec gym started in smu are also advancing. hopefully it will happen next yr? not gonna do any work tonight, shall take pity on my poor brains...

Arielle & Reese (:

:: the ugly green-eyed monster ::

2006-10-25T04:02:00.000-07:00

there are more important things than studying/doing assignments... really! i've been spending way too little time with mom & dad... so yesterday, even though i hardly studied, i was happy to spend the day with mom... for the past 10 weeks i hardly did. you get so wrapped up with finishing assigments, doing projects and mugging that you throw many other things aside... from now on, i don't want to do that anymore. nevermind if i push my work back a little (i dont do well anyway), i really feel spending time with family & friends is more important.
it struck me that if we do not learn and manage to juggle school and family/friends now, how is it that next time we will be able to juggle work and family? it's not going to be possible, and a life of a workaholic is not the life i want. even though the idea seemed far-fetched to me at the beginning of the year, i find that as the year passes and i experience coaching and uni life, the idea of working at bazgym as a coach or part of the management gets more and more acceptable and appealing to me. i would love to work for bazgym, especially if they do open their new beautiful branch at safra, it would be like a dream job to me (:
coached the level 1s yest, haven't seen them for 2 weeks, loved seeing them! they're getting bigger... haha... prob will be increasing their training to 3 times a week next yr, cant wait! haha... was thinking about the stuff i have to do next year... chu laoshi asked me to teach all the level 4s floor routines, like she'll give me videos and i have to learn and teach thm... then mom wants me to learn driving (horrors), i might start giving tuition (to the level 1s), recre gym at smu? archery? how about next year's econs orientation? hmm... busy busy, that i like it that i have things to look forward to, esp those that i enjoy (:

photo at the swimming pool downstairs bazgym

Arielle <3

:: the scars remind us the past is real ::

2006-10-16T19:26:00.000-07:00

the 2nd half of term starts today for me! there's one small consolation tho, and that is that even tho i'll be super busy again, it simply cannot beat the heow week before the mid term break, where every spare moment between doing projects and finishing assignments was spent studying and revising for the stats and maths for econs mid-terms... i better try harder to keep up with my work for the 2nd half of the term, or my heow weeks coming up in 1 and a half months or so will be heow-er than ever.
PK is picking up, it seemed to have grown legs and learnt how to sprint. from 1 meeting in 5-6 weeks to like 1-2 meetings a week, at least! but so far it's been rather fun. i dont regret joining, tho i had my doubts initially... judging course this weekend prevents me from helping out with the garang guni collection to raise funds, but yest when i called yimei she said the sunday one might be changed to monday... hopefully!
i was wondering on my way home yesterday, about how it seems harder and harder to recognise true friends as we get older. it's sad. should i be contented with what i have? the 'hi & bye' kind of friends? during sec sch & jc days, u always have that group of friends u can count on, i trust people who i knew were my friends fully and loved them unconditionally. but now, it's like i have to watch what i say with everyone, constantly trying to understand everyone's point of views and 'wavelengths'. growing up sure sucks.
with my birthday recently over, people have been telling me that i should treasure my youth, cos 'once u pass 21 time flies'. i already feel that time is flying, it scares me. at the same time, learning to 'treasure' is easier said than done. sometimes i do want to step back, look around and appreciate what i have, but there's simply no time. make time? also easier said than done. to 'make time' u have to let some things go. it's hard to let go! like, do i skip my BGS readings this week so i can meet up with old friends? complicated. u still have a duty to ur parents to do well in studies...
k, i'll end off here for now, esle i'll be late for my stats lesson. seeyou...

:: should i feel alarmed? should i be concerned? ::

guess which is the suedo tie? haha...

Intermezzo

2006-10-11T23:57:00.000-07:00

its taking more and more of an effort to blog... hmm anyway, 2 mid-terms are over... left 1, biz law. don't know anything, better study more. this hols is so non-existent... ok la, i admit it's slightly less stressful, cos otherwise i wouldn't have this sick feeling in my stomach when i think about school starting next week... but it's too short! before i have time to catch a few breaths, its time to chiong again...
1st aid course is over, im now a qualified 1st aider! qualifed is one thing, competent is another, i say... PK meeting tomorrow, much needed. the committees are stepping on each other's toes, no one is quite sure what they're suppose to do.
upload pictures next time...

2006-10-02T20:16:00.000-07:00

this week is a tough week... CT project presentation and individual assignment due on wed, maths for econs mid-terms on thursday, BGS proposal due on friday and Stats midterms on saturday... ohmy... most worried for my 2 mid-terms, of course... don't think i can finish studying in time! cham... will blog more next time...

:: get on up, when you're down, baby take a good look around. i know it's not much, but it's ok, to keep on moving anyway ::

2006-09-24T07:09:00.000-07:00

my cousin is getting married early next month... pity i can't go for her wedding cos im having stats mid-terms on that day. when i received the wedding invitation, i realised that my cousin and i do not have the same surname, even tho my dad and her dad are brothers... aint that something? haha... my dad says its because my dad and her dad don't have the same surname, even tho they are really brothers. the reason is that when they were born their names were recorded differently... my dad's name was recorded as "Sai" and my uncle's name was "Chai". Chai is like the chinese pronounciation but not entirely accurate either. haha... so funny. i could have been "Chai You Zi". but my dad says that my grandpa's name is also Sai.
my lousy week got worse the last 2 days... i made some super silly mistakes that i have to try to correct in the next fews days... sigh. dunno where i left my brains. this morning i had diarrhoear, after the buffet dinner i had last night. the dinner was fun tho (: with gym ppl again (: rocked. but anyway, coming back to this morning... ohmy, it was quite torturous. the ppl that went to cambodia in the middle of the yr said that about 70% of the ppl will get diarrhoear... this morning when i was diarrhoear-ing, i was thinking about how horrid it would be to have diarrhoear without the 'comfort' of a toilet! haha... and so painful somemore... yea. anyway, next week is gonna be a super busy week. and so is next next week... mid-terms! seeya!

2006-09-22T18:27:00.000-07:00

it's saturday morning... I'm in school... doing homework. I've been blogging every saturday for the past few weeks huh. this week has been not-too-good. felt tired and i screwed up 2 homeworks & 1 test :( boo. the past 2 nights woke up in the middle of the night with a stomachache for about an hour before going back to sleep. & im dropping hair. haha.
butthen one of the things i've learnt and am still in the process of aquiring is not to let everything stress you out. like, u have to let go of some things, and especially things beyond your control. then possibly will be less stressed. yea la, i better go do my creative thinking essay now. ciaos~

2006-09-16T06:54:00.000-07:00

back from Kampuchea bonding camp! short one, from friday afternoon to this afternoon. mainly played games (had lots of laughs! :D) and discussed about the project. we went to watch a midnight move too... "The Banquet". ask me how it is? as someone said "either it's too deep, or we're too stupid, or its a lousy show". ha. one thing's for sure, it's a gory show. well apart from that, we got to meet the people we would be working closely for the next 2+months and going to cambodia with. 22 of us in all! mostly year 1s, some year 2s and a couple of year 3s. we also got a better idea of what we're gonna do there, and the activities from now till we leave. im in the welfare committee. haha... i dunno how that happened! (prob talk too much during the interview) during the camp itself i dropped my towel on the way up to class and didn't notice, i fell of a chair during one of the meetings and i left my shoes behind when i went home. i must learn to look after myself, otherwise how to look after ppl's welfare when we're in cambodia? hais. and oh, the trip got extended by 2 days! cos we're going sightseeing (not part of the CIP) at Ang Kor Wat or something... so will only be back on Christmas Eve! :( and gg a total of 20 days!
hmm just checked my flooded email. im happy with my bgs quiz results. hehe. i need it cos my class participation in bgs really sucks. i should try to speak more in class, altho sometimes i really dunno what to say! but it's kinda weird cos i can do well in the quizes. maybe its just cos im lucky with MCQ. actually my brain is empty. bgs project is so stressful, dunno what to do! and we got our AS project groupings too. im quite amused cos 3 out of the 5 ppl in my group are those ppl that im like closest too in class, n the 4 of us got assigned to the same group. haha. going airport to send some of my classmates off tomorrow! im excited, haven't seen any of them in ages!
hope everyone is well, love you all! (:

2006-09-08T04:56:00.000-07:00

hello! this week has been crazily busy, everyday got stuff on from morning to night, project, class, work, interview, etc... im so tired. anyway today aud & i went for archery beginner's course. it was quite fun! mainly we were so lousy at it at first... my first arrow tho we were like 5 metres away from the target board i totally missed it and the arrow spilt the door at the side... rofl... i had to laugh for a while before attempting the next arrow. had fun la anyway (:
i went for an interview to go for cambodia cip on tues night, & this morn i received a mail saying i got in... kinda miraculous, was really worried that i wouldn't cos like more than 100 people applied and they were choosing only 21. so im quite happy that i got in but on the same time im sad cos audrey didn't get in, and so far i don't know anyone whp's going :( it will be a good experience, but it's gonna take up alot of time and effort... have to cut down work at bazgym further, otherwise i sure cannot take it.
im in school now doing biz law project, 15 pages due on tuesday... wish us luck!

2006-09-05T04:21:00.000-07:00

could it get any worse? ---

2006-09-01T08:43:00.000-07:00

the complains have been the same for some time... there's more going on inside...

br e a king down-

2006-08-29T06:44:00.000-07:00

haiyo... so much work to do... madness! why i so lousy ah... i think it's cos it's the first time im actually trying to keep up with work... in sec sch & jc i seldom did my work, but i dunno why now im so ganchiong! yest some sernior pointed out how funny it was that aud & i 'chiong dam hard but dunno where we're chionging to'. so true. haha... i got my bid for biz law, which meant i was suppose to read 100+ pages of the law textbook this evening, but i fizzled out at 80+... really tiring & boring! now my wednesdays will be a mad dash, CT 830-1145 at SESS, biz law 12-315 at biz block & then AS 330-5pm at Sess again! shall see if i survive tomorrow...
i cant take it that on top of lessons im working at baz 5 times a week + readings & projects... plus im constantly worrying about cip. think i shall change baz to 4 times a week. i def still want to work tho, cos not only do i enjoy working there, but before work & stuff it's a good place to study... CCAs gonna start soon? hrm.

2006-08-26T06:32:00.000-07:00

it's truely nice to talk to familiar people again... but at the same time it makes you realise how much you miss them... then there's always the "catch up with you again soon" or "let's meet up next week" & altho i really really want to, the back of my head knows that it's unlikely to fit it into our schedule. most of my friends are leading our own, different lives now... schoolwork, deadlines, activities, the people immediatly around you takes precedent over your treasured, familiar, old friends that you share many wonderful memories with. i guess that's how life is.

i wish there was something, something to make my life more meaningful. it's so wrong of me to say that. but i do.

2006-08-24T04:15:00.000-07:00

woah i haven't sat at my table to do work for the longest time. i feel accomplished today for doing so, tho i didn't do much. (accidentally left my textbooks at Baz >.<) yay (: haha...
school so far... the workload seems quite heavy, i must say... taking stats, maths for econs, business + govt & society, creative thinking & analytical skills... then i very enthu go & bid for one more course, "business law"... dunno if i'll get it tho... i heard its really tough. i feel like i signed a contract with myself to study really hard this term. but it doesn't seem like i have much esle to do anyway. DUNNO HOW IM GONNA FINISH MY 80 HOURS OF CIP. im afraid of all the maths stuff. sometimes i really wonder what im doing studying econs... zzz. retarded. nvm, i shall just be a mugger & attend all the consultations for maths...
is it stressful? YES. today i bumped into vanessa (senior in rg) & she asked me how school was and i gave her a face, & she laughed and said 'it's only the 1st week!' haha yes i hope it will get better... usually im not too good at the adjusting part.
you know i have no idea wth im suppose to bid for/study at smu. for this term it's ok cos i can either not bid or bid for one thing. & aud & i were told to bid for 'financial accouting' or 'business law', which we did. but i have No Idea how it fits into my education at SMU -_- clever hor.
today i recognised one person wrongly & couldn't recognise someone esle i know from last time. so malu! me & my goldfish memory

time passes so fast. it's most important to be happy

2006-08-21T05:13:00.000-07:00

this has to be some kind of record. not even 1st day of school and im totally lost. tho we had no lessons today, aud & i planned to meet in school at 1030am to get some errands run before meeting winston from ssu at 3.30pm so i thought ok, plenty of time...
our gym session was fun, we jogged and use some of the equipment & the showers were very nice, but that was like the only relaxing part of the day... when we tried to start bidding i realised how complicated it is... sooo many to choose from & won't everyone like end up bidding for the same thing with the same amount? :S at least there are a few rounds, i guess... yea then we took awhile to figure out the locker thing... i don't get why i paid for a large locker but ended up with a medium locker today... ohwell. hmm then went to make specs... we went to meet winston at 330 about starting gym & it turned out to be many times more complicated then we thought. 1stly, he said that we're not really under ssu cos we're not planning to go for competitions... but seriously, there are no competitions to go for... so he suggested that we 'combine' with the fitness & wellness club or wtv it's called. which i guess, is not a bad idea if they let us. then went to look for printer cos aud wanted to print some stuff... took super long to find the printing room and in the end cannot use cos need cashcard -_- haiyo. i also need to print stuff and nowhere to print. how headache. then we visited verts to get new books. omg it was sooo crowded. & when we went there we realised we didn't know what books we needed -_- and i was panicking cos i saw people i know there and they got all their books already... so i decided i'd better get what i could fr andy 1st and worry abt the rest later. when we wanted to log onto vista (cos oasis died) my laptop refused to even let me use the internet. what a totally sucky day.
tomorrow i have my first lesson. hope it will be better....

2006-08-19T07:24:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel like it's not the real me among all these unfamiliar faces... or perhaps i have changed so much i don't recognise my new self... if so, i prefer my old self. then again, i feel different even among the people i've known for ages... it's kinda sad, i prefer the 'old me'. do i sound insane? i think i do ler... how...
what happened ah? is it natural process? somehow i think it's got to do with the months of teaching/coaching.. made me more self-righteous or something... :S yuech.

2006-08-16T06:46:00.000-07:00

got back from smu circle orientation camp this afternoon... after konking out for 2 hrs, i woke up & watched oprah on tv... this evening's episode was about something like if you were something and it's taken away from you, how do you adjust and redefine yourself, how do you still love yourself and be sure of your worth... it felt quite meaningful to me cos even tho i never consciously considered the issue, it's quite apparent that i've felt it before... like after i quit gym, what was i? i use to be 'national gymnast' but now... it's like nothing. how do u love yourself anyway? how does your 'now' self face up to yourself in the past? interesting huh...
anyway, now about CAMP. weeell... im glad i survived. the toilets were gross, the food was gross, some of the games were gross... but other than that, quite alright la (: so thankful to have had janelle in my og... tho i never knew her before in rg & rj, but we clicked quite easily & crapped through the rest of camp...
briefly about the activities... they were more challenging & less fun than the econs camp one, & everything also have debrief to see where u went wrong... at 1st i was like wth la anything we do sure got wrong one, but later i just accepted it lor.. try to learn as much as i can from it. on the 1st day we played loads of games and had a few challenges, like filling a barrel with holes with water. that one nearly killed me la... cover the holes until my hand cramp... then seawater and sand all over... lol. some of the games quite interesting la, have to use brains one. at night we had night activities at some bungalow places eslewhere, most of the gross stuff happened here... gross as in... unpleasant la. lazy to elaborate, maybe another day. but seriously sick! anyway during the night activities we had haunted house... i went in with janelle & megan (our faci)... i scream & laugh until i nearly fainted la... sream non-stop & scared janelle & megan cos of my screaming... empty room also scream cos i thought the shadow was someone. haha... i was super freaked out tho not many ppl thought it was scary -_- haha... slept at almost 1am and woke at 630am...
next morn 1st thing kayaking... i now remember why i hate kayaking so much... carry the kayak down to the sea i slipped on the seaweed & fell on my ass la. dam pain! haha... lucky lucky never capsize- 2 of my og mates capsized cos they splash water on other people until too excited never see big wave come then they capsize. whereas i was like screaming about the wave and trying to stablelise myself the whole time... im a real chicken. my og was the 1st to go back to shore... then we were told to instruct the other OGs to come out of the kayak near the shore & help them with their kayaks. so our whole OG very honourable stand one row to help the many people coming in... unfortunately, i lost all my honourability when one of the kayaks got pushed up by the wave and whacked me in the shin... pain! even more pain then falling on my ass. haha... and bleeding. but not much. but pain cos seawater. then the rest of the day we did teambuilding stuffs. we failed in a number so faci quite irritated. then i also sian sian. very tired ler. we had to build a 'car'. dam cutes la the guys fixed the wheels and stuff and the girls designed and painted the cardboard body. cos our theme was greek, so our design was a chariot. they only gave us red, yellow and light blue paint so our poor horse was like maroon+ pink. 'gay horse' plus its ears were blue & yellow. so look like unicorn. but it was fun la. every time i look at it i want to laugh. at night campfire... cheer+skits+performances+loudmusic. quite fun.
last day! it was called what... final challange i think. it was a race. activities like sliding/crawling on soapy water, rafting, then must use the 'car' to complete some also... exciting la, but tiring too. our og finished 3rd out of the 5 teams in our wave. then clean toilet go home.
ok yea this is a rather crappy account. i very sleepy la. im so glad i also went for the econs camp. gave me a more balanced view of smu. and i think i learnt ALOT more about smu through that then this... econs camp super spoilt me. haha... this one wasn't as fun, but im just glad to have survived. and i was alot more enthu during this one! haha... the key word is more. kk thats all for now... seeya! (:

imissyousomuch&idontknowwhattosay

2006-08-12T06:18:00.000-07:00

i've got infected lymph gland... paid 32 bucks to say that so i want to say it :p for 3 days my neck hurt when i touch it so went to see doctor on friday, & thats what he said he was... think it's my 1st time seeing doctor (besides sports council doctor thats not counted too many times alr) in like 10 years? haha... it's abit swollen n sore, & i have to take antibiotics for a few days, but thats all. (:
went to ri on friday for the 1st time since before comp... abit nanshou also cos my mouth very itchy, take alot of self control not to shout. haha :p i like watching the seniors helping the juniors, the fun n lively atmosphere of the gym, the comically intense look of concentration on some of the sec1s guys when they are trying to get a move... school training is really different from club training, i prefer it muchly.
even tho it's been barely a month, i feel like all i've got of it now are the memories, & slowly, even those will fade away... it's quite a pity, since i enjoyed it and had loads of laughter... somehow i don't see it as just a job. like coach, take money & go, it's so much more than that! now i understand why mrs chew said 2 years ago that she tells people one of her greatest achievements in teaching is staying in touch with her students. cos without that, when the memories fade away, you're left with nothing.
my arms are aching from supporting the sec 1s yesterday (too long never support) & i think they're going to ache even more tomorrow from supporting the level1s n yingen & yingrou today at bazgym.
monday gotta go for circle camp already... ahhh.... see how it goes!

arielle, one of the pre-level 1s, in the new bazgym leo... cute hor?

2006-08-10T07:11:00.000-07:00

back from bintan! haha... it was fun! :D the resort we went to was called 'bintan agro beach resort' and guess what? it only opened 5 days ago! and the 7 of us were the only guests in the whole place! haha! so cool la when we walked into the dining area there was only one table set for 7... haha... the scenery was gorgeous & the people were really friendly & helpful, but cos it was new there were hitches like the electricity going off, and us having to change rooms cos suddenly got no water... haha... & the stuff there is really cheap! it's quite funny how we buy so much stuff that we carry until wanna die & we haven't even spent 10 sing bucks yet! haha... i'll do a photo journal instead of a write-up of what we did there... but since i couldn't take my camera with me when we went kayaking i must say it was super fun! :D haha... the beach there is really cool cos it's very shallow and even if you're 100++m away from shore the water is still waist deep! so it really wasn't scary kayaking cos you can see the bottom in fact being a lousy kayaker my paddle sometimes hit the bottom :p & sanmay & i went around visiting all the crab traps we could find... haha... kk i'll end off here... see ya! (:

2006-08-08T07:37:00.000-07:00

today watched 'click' with peishan... nice show, makes you want to appreciate life (:
going Bintan tomorrow! with he laoshi, chu laoshi, xie laoshi, mr sng, mr au & sanmay! just a short trip, hope it'll be fun! (: the slightly less than 2 weeks before school starts will be busy, i think... cool. i think it's time to pick up the pace in life again! :p

2006-08-05T07:36:00.000-07:00

good food & good fun (:

today Ri gym had a 'gathering' at ruilin's house... 1st time i've seen any of them since nationals! was only like 2 weeks ago but it felt like ages, since i used to see them almost every day for the 1st half of the year... most of the team was there, plus some rj people, meiling & helaoshi... it was nice seeing everyone again (:
it's different how i enjoy these gatherings as compared to the uni ones... im not saying that the orientation & stuffs were not fun, but with people like these whom i feel really comfortable with, im more at ease & kinda like feel less pressured when i go? like let myself loose & have fun kind... i can throw on a looney tunes t-shirt without thinking twice whereas for uni stuff i have to think about what i can wear... i mean, i dont Have to, but somehow u just will la... sighs. anw, tonight was really fun. the food, the people, the pool table, the dart board, etc etc... i dont think i can feel this way in uni, ever... i'll miss these times (:

2006-08-04T03:59:00.000-07:00

spent the last 3 mornings in SMU... must say that i feel that i feel a much stronger sense of belonging to the econs school than the business school. naturally, cos i went for the econs orientation camp but not the biz one... suprisingly, the 2 schools are quite different. probably cos im bias, i prefer the econs school lots more... it Seems like the whole school is more enthu & the seniors are more involved... hmm well. i hope i'll like the business school as much eventually too.
aud & i are attempting to start gym as a cca in smu... really don't know if it'll work, & sometimes i feel rather reluctant to try, but i decided to, cos it's something i like doing & it will be fun if we succeed. after all, they say in smu that if you are shy, nothing gets done...

You could be my dream come true...

2006-07-31T07:34:00.000-07:00

NUS called me today to say that they're offering me a place to do Law... i was quite shocked. it's like so late already & i've been for orientation & all... and they said they if i accept i have to go for matriculation tonight. then of course i didn't want la, cos i didn't want to do law in the 1st place & also i'm kinda looking forward to SMU already... but still have to check with mom & dad. so i called dad and he said since i don't want then don't want, then i checked with mom & she said ask dad so yayyy (: no change. but i still think it's odd that nus called so late, but its Good that they only called today.

2006-07-30T06:33:00.000-07:00

i got my gilmore girls season 4 & 5!!! :D thanks senghenk & meiling!! (: haha... so happy! now i have so much stuff to watch! plus mr sng has like 4 DVDs of cirque de solei perfomances & some movies that i wanna watch! ahh! how to finish watching everything before school starts?! haha... but its a happy kind of problem (:

2006-07-28T19:57:00.000-07:00

hi! im back from econs camp. it was 2 long, tiring, slightly awkward & really fun days... so thursday morning started at harbour front mrt at an unearthly hour of 8am. there were 8 OGs of 12-13 people i think, totaling 100 school of econs students. thats about half of the econs batch at smu. then we took a bus to Sentosa, more specifically, siloso beach, where we played ice-breaker games for about an hour... then came the 1st exciting race of the camp- the inter OG relay race on the beach. the sad was soooo Hot so my feet were like ow ow ow. no kidding. i dunno why i was the only one complaining tho. anws, for that relay race we had to race to dig alphabets out of the sand to form a fruit, then eat a whole bag of that fruit without using our hands (we got green apples... yuck!), then we had to like caterpillar walk together for a distance, then was the longest line competition were we had to use stuff on ourselves to form a line, then was catch water bags competition, where of course there were more bags bursting then being caught. then the guys had to carry our faci (facilitators) into the sea and walk around something without getting her wet, then we had to build a pyramid & take photo. haha... it was one mad dash, but it was nothing compared to our race against sch of social science the next day (i'll explain later). anyway, being my usual lazy, antisocial self, i managed to keep myself totally dry & clean for the entire game :p oops. but my joy was short-lived, as u will see later. then after that was lunch & more games...
in the afternoon we had another inter-OG race, but it was more like amazing race kind of competition, but we had to do it all on foot. at 1st my OG started running, but then after a while we decided to be more 'heck care' just enjoy ourselves kind... each station was really quite far from one another, so it was pretty tiring. at the stations we had to do things like find mentoes/twisties/pocky in a tray of flour, play games with other OGs, cheer & cheer & cheer... the 2 most memorable for me was the station we had to play like dog & bone in the sea. Ughs. that one got me totally soaked. & also, the one that we had to use our hands to find scrabble pieces in a box filled with mealworms... gross! lol. we were really lucky that we group had a guy that was a guide for sentosa or something, so he could guess the places easily & knew how to go, so we didn't get lost at all (: (we were not so lucky on the 2nd day). weeell, after everything, we were one of the last few OGs to finish the race, then we spent a long time trying to take a picture of our OG jumping :p & we played captains ball on the beach, then it was shower, dinner & back to school!
the long day was far from over. when we got to school, we went to the classrooms where we were going to stay for the night. 2 OGs share one small classroom, but it was enough la. shortly after we were brought down to other classrooms where they were screening 'meet the fockers' & 'harold & kuma', u can choose what u want la. my OG watched 'meet the fockers'. pretty good, but three quarter way through the move (it was about 10.45pm), one of my facis, grace, came in & told me & this other girl to follow her, so we were like err, okay... then she brought us out & when i asked her what are we doing? she said, u'll see... then my friend was a little worried & i told her 'aiya, nothing good one la'... she brought us & 6 other people from other OGs out of the school to Fort Canning Park! fright night! haha... ok, so we had to walk through in pairs, with ur partner from a different OG from u, so u dunno ur partner la... audrey happened to go before me so we planned that she would walk slower so we could catch up with her... & cos we were so close, it was alot easier for me cos every time i heard her scream i knew something scary was coming up... there were 3 scares, & they were all pretty good (: altho it was shocking & scary at times, i felt that it was really fun la... it was about half an hour & we walked together with audrey & her partner like 3 quarts of the way... haha... when we got out we had to waaaiiit for dam long for other people to come out. we were the like the 2nd batch & by the time our group was done it was midnight already. haha... so the whole thing ended at like 2+am... then we went for supper, then bed (: i slept really well, but it was like 5 hours only.
next morning, 8am... breakfast! we were given sushi, fruit salad, mango juice & curry puffs. pretty good! most of our meals were sponsored, & the whole camp was free! yep (: then we had a little bit of free time before our next amazing race, this time round the city! & it was 8 statitons instead of 5 like the previous day. took us like 3-4hours! for the 2nd day, we were short of time so we had to literally run & speed-walk from station to station. & i tell u my feet Hurt. & my calfs are aching today. we had to like do challenges at each station to earn points... the games were fun & interesting! never had i played games on this scale before... haha... my group did pretty well that day i think, although we got lost a few times, one of the times it was totally my fault. paiseh! we had to do things like get people from the public to sing songs for us, play sharrades across the road, etc etc. the guys in my OG really ons, they helped to succeed in most of the challenges. hmm, dunno how our OG did for that race, then it was mad rush for lunch cos we had to get ready for the most exciting part of the day!
to me, the absolute most exciting part of camp was the econs vs social science race. it was a relay and our OG was assigned to the 3rd aka middle statiton... our task was to form the longest line... all our seniors were dam rah-rah... keep psycho-ing & psycho-ing us until we dam enthu & nervous. haha... horrors of horrors when the baton was past to our station we were behind the social science people! & they kept saying we had to had to win this cos we won last year, & the seniors said it's like taken for granted that we would win. so we were quite shocked when the baton was past to social science & they started forming their line & our baton was nowhere to be seen! haha... at 1st our station had not enough people, but luckily some of the seniors came to help us form numbers. that was lucky cos 1) they were wearing shoes=can use shoe-laces and 2) they were guys so can take off shirt & can run faster. so when our baton came we Really CHIONG ah! line everything up dam fast & jump onto the floor to form the line... wth! dam fast la. before i knew it they were off to the next station, blow balloons one, then the powerful OG 8 was at the last station. in the end we won by like 1metre! super close man... haha... & the cheering throughout the whole thing was super super loud! can really feel the energy, the excitement, the spirit & the hunger to win. we were told that our station helped to catch up quite abit, so we were happy.
after that it was slacking time... we learnt more games then it was buffet dinner, picnic style... didn't like the food. then it was like the grand finale thing... performances, more games & laughter, prizes, appreciation, etc... then finish, go home... yup (: haha... on the whole it was fun la, thought i was terribly anti-social at times. im ashamed of it! next week gotta go back to SMU a couple more times, for talks and stuff. then the following week going for a 2-day trip to Bintan! with the Bazgym coaches & he laoshi yayy (: then the week after that we have another orientation camp... for the whole uni but split into 3 batches. that one im a little scared of. & then, before u know it, school start liao! haha...
after the camp, i can really see myself enjoying myself at SMU. i hope its not an illusion that they provided us with... i can also tell that its going to be really busy & tough there... 4 years is a long time! oh yea, the gym is gorgeous... & its at the school of economics & social science! yay (: they also have a travel agency, banks & other shops in the basement. how cool (:

2006-07-22T07:01:00.000-07:00

i loved watching finals yesterday, especially floor! Elite Gymnastics is just amazing to watch! (: i wanna watch a high-level gym comp sometime soon! like Olympics or World Championships (: hehe...
anyways, yesterday had dinner at Seoul Garden again, like last year... it was expectedly loud, chaotic, amusing, embarassing & loads of fun :D haha... but now, im officially not coaching ri anymore... :( even the level 1s didn't manage to cheer me up today :( maybe cos rhianne & reina weren't there.
i have a few sian days before my life in uni starts... camps & talks start next week! cool (: i hope i'll have fun!

2006-07-18T02:59:00.000-07:00

it's only when it's over and you can't change things that your mistakes come back to haunt you. we beat sji on pbars, hbar and vault but lost 4 points to them on pommel. cos 2 people from sji managed to finish their routine. 4 points! so in the end ri came in 3rd. 3rd! just what i feared. & then i start to re-evaluate myself, find out what went wrong and why i failed to meet my expectations. failed as their coach. one of the reasons is of couse the obvious lack of my knowledge on pommel... but that is only an excuse, i could have learned, i could have paid more attention, but i didn't... it really comes down to how badly you want something... if i wanted it bad enough, i could have changed it... thinking back, i would have done things differently... i could have either really paid attention & try to get pommel technique, or should have discussed with he laoshi for him to take their pommel & i watch another team when they do pommel instead or something. sigh.
but after all that, there is of course another point of view... the "they are really not bad already" point of view. i don't think i contradict myself earlier when i say honestly that i am very proud of them... it's nothing short of a big accomplishment for them to have come so far this year. they improved so much, especially in the june holidays when meiling, wensi, jon & chris came to help and the 2 weeks leading up to the competition where the team started getting skills at an incredible rate! for me, it's still been an amazing & rewarding experience. i've learned so much from coaching them, and i hope for them, vice versa. when i look through the file & notebook that i have for C div, i see the heart & soul i put into coaching them. in my diary entry dated 10/2 (when i just started coaching them) i wrote: " I'll offer them the best that i can offer them: my time, my commitment, my knowledge, my love." (:
at least today, i feel that we lost fairly... judging was bias, but not too bad cos on pbars our judges were awesome (: haha... the bitter taste in my mouth is only from my own actions.
im not going to india any more... tian laoshi don't let... but i'm not really disappointed la, cos it was going to cost at least 1600+ bucks... i can do lots with 1600 bucks! im only sad that wei might be lonely there la... kk i'll end off here... tomorrow is a looonnngggg day... going to meet some of my mates at SMU!

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Love this song! (:

2006-07-15T05:43:00.000-07:00

Im going to India... yay? i dunno... sigh. i feel bad about spending so much money... esp since i didn't get a scholarship for uni so uni is going to cost ALOT. i feel awful... AWFUL! i must study hard in uni!! & im a little sad that i'm not going to be able to go for orientation & the academic talks, & im a little scared of going to mumbai, plus on the whole, i like singapore alot and haven't quite gotten over going to japan for 3 weeks. hais
on the other hand, i guess it'll be fun... i guess. plus, i've never been to india before & it's quite an opportunity to get to room with wei & watch the comp & all... i hope we have time for shopping too! i wanna bring my laptop along, but dunno if dad will let me... then i can watch my gilmore girls DVDs if they come before i leave... yea...

2006-07-14T23:29:00.000-07:00

I got a laptop yesterday! From smu... acer. 2000 bucks out of my account. Ouch!
I'm trying to decide if I should go to India with wei... I really want to go, but if I do I'll miss econs orientation & all the academic talks! Haii... so confused. If I go it'll be for 11 days, from 26th july to 5th august, & I'll get to room with wei... free food & accommodation but I gotta pay for the air ticket la.
Level 1s after this... yay!

2006-07-12T07:48:00.000-07:00

i'd go as far as to say that today marked a milestone of RI C div... Finally, excluding pommel, we have 5 people who can complete the routine for every event... vault, highbar, pbars & floor (it was completed in this order). Today, our honourable yeanpok did double back handspring on floor by himself. Hoorays! pbars was also completed just this week, with ruijie & michael moving up to the high pbars to do themselves during the 2 ceyans. highbar was last week, when michael & yeanpok went up for kip & renhao for front hip... but have yet to lian la... anyway, IM SO GLAD!! whew, finally. i thought this day would never come! haha... regardless of what the result may be at nationals in a few days time, i feel that this is truly an accomplishment to celebrate! haha... just 4 more trainings! press on!

2006-07-08T06:28:00.000-07:00

today coach ri in the morning, then bazgym level 1s in the afternoon... after being in the 'quite strict scolding' mode i didn't quite adjust properly when coaching the level 1s so i think i scared them (& myself) when they were being playful then i scold loudly & fiercely :S
teaching the level 1s was really tiring today... had to support them for floor, carry them for bars, break up arguments, fight with them over the chalk :p, constantly correct their arms & legs position, be a makeshift bridge cos reina & rachel kept crawling under my legs, sayang them, scold them... wa, it was like a workout for me. but they're sooo cute i love coaching them very muchly (:
i was flipping through my old competition journals the other day & i couldn't help laughing at some of the quotes/moments that were recorded. im so glad that i kept these journals, tho i had to torture everyone to help me write in them! thanks so much! haha... shall share some of them... (the actual thing is funnier cos its got everyone's funny handwriting & random comments... plus not nice to post some stuff *coughs)

Asean Schools 2004, Singapore (stayed at Copthorne Orchid Hotel)
[Bilah going to take a bathe]
Bi: Eee... the water is so green!
Youzi: Ya... nvm one la, the most you get rashes
Bi: I doewan... I rather die
Yz: ...... you're mad
(after shower)
Bi: my wrist hurts! I tell u its the water man...

[one early morning: Bi is leaning against the door outside our room, nicole & i inside sleeping. Will comes out of his room]
Will: What are you doing out here?
Bi: I locked myself out of the room
Will: Then why don't knock the door?
Bi: Cos they're sleeping & i dont want to disturb them
Will: Don't tell me you've been here all night?!
Bi: No la, only 5 min...

[this one is writen my wenling... : just now wei had no toilet paper. so she was like]
Wei: wenling! there's no toilet paper!
Wenling: oh no! how?
Wei: Call roomservice/housekeeping
Wenling: oh. okie
Wei: Thanks!
Wenling: *dialing the number for R.S.* hello? this is room 3119 & we have no toilet paper.
The person on the other line: ?? this is room service, not housekeeping!!
Wenling: oh no! okie. sorry. thanks *hangs up*

[we were planing to form 'SG GYM' with out bodies]
Wensi: Who wants to be an 'S'?
Linghan: Who would want to be an ass?!
Wensi: ok linghan shall be part of the 'S'!
Linghan: hey, neva get my consent!
Wensi: dont need one. and wenling shall be the other part
Wenling: Baka! *frowns*

Malaysian Open 2004
[we took a coach to KL]
after 10 mins on the bus...
Wei: Where are we?
Youzi: huh? In Singapore still...
Wei: Oh crap! hahahaha...

after passing through 2 customs & travelling for a while...
Wenling: are we in Malaysia yet?

[we stayed 5 people to a room]
girls: our air-con not working! *complains x5*
guys: you all got on main switch anot?
girls: what main switch?
guys: ......

YouZi *pops a painkiller into her mouth & opens the 5.5litre bottle of water we bought from carrefour*
Yz: okay i can do this *lifts up bottle*
Wenling & Joy *rush over screaming*: NOooo!!
Yz *bursts out laughing & puts 5.5l of water heavily on the ground. naturally, the water splashes all over my face so all burst out laughing*
Yz: im trying to swallow a pill!
Joy & wenling: what makes u think u can pour 5.5l of water into your mouth??!
Joy: later you no need to bathe already! haha...

Wenling after competing on floor: That was the nicest jiu bai (2 and a half twist) i ever sat.

[this is writeen my wenling, at the gymnastics stadium]
we're staring at these mad guys doing a kallang roar imitation.
Step 1: raise up your hands
Step 2: Get your butt off the chair, 5 inches will do
Step 3: say "OOIIIIII" very loudly
Step 4: look around to see that nobody's following you & then try again

Kangwei: You know i thought the large chicken Mcnugget meal means the nugget will be bigger ler...

[written by kangwei]
In our physiotherapist, Farah's room...
Youzi: Lets take some pics!
Cave: let me take!
after 1 shot...
cave: eh? why cannot?
farah: is it blur?
-5 secs of total silence-
cave: its Chao blur!! hahaha
us: haha... wa liao!
after 2 more shots...
us: how's it?
cave: uh... why all blink one?
us: *laugh loudly, madly*
farah: ok that's it cavan, u're not taking anymore! *she passed the camera over to a lady judge that was in the rm*
and the judge took 2 photos in like 15 secs? while cave took 3 pics in 5 Mins!

ok, im tired so that's enough. seeya!

2006-07-06T07:39:00.000-07:00

Wa today i was dam clever... part 2 of the fig judging course was today so i left ri training early and took a bus to CCAB. not once during the long wait for the bus or the long, crowded bus ride, or the rather long walk into CCAB itself did it cross my mind that today's course was at BISHAN, where i came from. hais. part 1 on monday was there but today it was at bishan... yea then as i was crossing the road to the busstop 156 zoomed pass. sigh. haha...
well then the brighter part was that just as i reached the bus stop thinking what a terrible evening this has been, ruijie sms-ed me to say he got his 1 n a half circle on pommel, which is great! 2nd person in the team... haha... plus, heard that yeanpok did double back flip with support! haha... its a start... and he got his kip yesterday & renhao his front hip on monday... Yay... things seem to be coming together... but of course, there's still loads more work to do! think training is going to be everyday this week... haha... rafflesians are such pia-ers! seriously. but i guess it's better than when cmi still don't do anything about it huh?
well then, i reached bishan an hour late... but turns out that it probably didn't matter cos i caught no ball during the rest of the course... i didn't know how to draw the signs for all the cheem moves so i just sat there and played with yimei's stationary & my stuff... must study hard before the actual judging course! haha... kk seeyou! (:

2006-07-01T06:52:00.000-07:00

today's ce yan (ri) was... oh my goodness :S he laoshi: "youzi, ta1 men2 zhe4 yang4 zhen1 de bu4 xing2 ah..." hais. how? 2 more weeks only man... which also means like 2+ weeks before i leave them! aahh!
gosh, half of the year is over already... time is flying flying.... blahblahblah. maybe i got more things to say tomorrow.

"...learn... How to lose your innocence but not your hope. How to laugh forever." -The Joy Luck Club

2006-06-28T20:07:00.000-07:00

Taylor Hicks Americal Idol 2006

I've never been
the one to raise my hand
that was not me
and now that's who I am
because of you
I am standing tall

My heart is full
of endless gratitude

You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I can see
And I believe
It's only just beginning

This is what we dreamed about
but my only question with me now
do I make you proud
stronger then I've ever been now

Do I make you proud
Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved

This is what we dreamed about
but my only question with me now
do I make your proud
(2x)

Stronger than I've ever been
Do I make you proud?
Do I make you proud?

i discovered something bad about myself recently... im what you call, 'not open to options'. to put it in a cruder way, 'stubborn'. like, if i don't wanna go overseas for uni means i don't wanna go overseas, if i wanna quit gym means i wanna quit gym, that kind... i suppose occassionally it might become a strength, but one of my major weakness because of it is that i tend to be judgemental about other poeple when they don't fit what i think the ideal should be. that is Bad. haiis. now that i'm aware of it, i should try to change it... tough.
last night after bazgym, went for supper with he, chu, xie, mr sng & sanmay... they wanted to eat durians, but since i don't eat durians i had normal food & listened to their conversations... they started talking about floor routines & chu laoshi was saying that in the 2003 sea games, i had a dance move in my routine similar to the pose that the mascot for the sea games was doing... & he laoshi said 'its cos they didn't notice otherwise your floor will get 1st'... chu "it's a pity you weren't around then, otherwise could have prevented it"... he: "eh! your mascot up there dancing you all also cannot see?" omg. it was in chinese so translate abit weird... but so funny la.

2006-06-24T23:56:00.000-07:00

went for chris's birthday party last night... WOW. it was amazing la... the restaurant was prob one of the most expensive ones i've stepped in in my life, the food was amazing, the activities/games were interesting, & of cos company was great cos had meiling (& cheryl :p) & later on sanmay came! :D hehe... it was cool... we were kinda shocked by the loads of people & formality of the event tho... it was chris's 21st & his mom's 50th birthday celebration.
today marked the end of my 2nd brief attempt at coaching a young, non-competing gym class... for the 2nd time, i didn't manage to get past coaching them for more than 3 weeks. hahaha... it's really not my thing... i got no patience! so i was uh... sacked? & transferred to another group. next week im taking the boys group... bout 6-8 yrs old? haha... hope it goes better!

2006-06-23T08:26:00.000-07:00

Bazgym got a new tumble tramp! SO COOL la! *boing boing boing*! hahaha...
Mr Sng say i 'should be more encouraging' to the ri boys... i.e. i very mean la... oops. hai. i just realised that its easy to praise other students, like when i go henry park to help christine, but i hardly praise mine! ok la, sooommeeetimes, but awfully seldom... hais. i think the henry park c comp girls are dam cute! hehe...

2006-06-23T02:39:00.000-07:00

Sanmay is coming back tomorrow!! Oh Joyful JOYFUL!! :D :D So happy! hehe...
Today had video session with C div... hmm... the 1st 4 events we were just watching calmly, more or less... but then wensi warned me when she watched the last routine on pommel yesterday that i did an absolutely ridiculous job with the video cam... lucky i only videoed 2 events, otherwise all cannot watch properly already... cos i always got alot of stupid comments one then i didn't about them hearing my comments when we watched it so today when the video was playing could keep hearing my voice saying things like "aiyo! why he drop here!" or "AYE! stop bouncing around me! *camera bounces up & down*"... hais. then lucky wensi warned me beforehand and since i was already laughing like crazy i left before renhao's routine... which wensi told me that i was laughing so hard the camera was shaking... lol. unfortunately, i don't think they (ri c div) appreciated the jokes as much as wensi & i did... :p
i think they've improved... but still not enough! still got some skills cannot do! GRR... and school starting next week! sure dam busy la... them, not me... ohwell.... just try out best la hor... whatever happens, it has been a good experience for me & i hope for them too! i hope la...

2006-06-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

i found the money! it was on my table all along... teehehe...

2006-06-18T05:42:00.000-07:00

i can't find my money... 50 bucks... its so weird, i thought i put it in my wallet last night but when i checked this morning it wasn't there... and i can't find it at home either... haiis. thats 2 sessions with Reese...
daddy left for the airport a while ago... he is going to Paris for 6 days... lucky! hope he has a good time!
its 4 weeks to nationals, just 4...

2006-06-15T07:28:00.000-07:00

last few days have been sad... & freaky... if u all have been keeping up with the news, Lena, an ex-gymnast from St. Nicks who is 22 this year passed away cos of a car accident while she was on holiday in Canada... I sort of knew her cos she used to train at Saga for a while & brought me around St Nicks once... anyway, Wensi, Meiling, Jon & I went for her wake on tuesday... sad... & then this morning in the papers there was an article saying that a man died in a hit-and-run accident at my condo 2 nights ago... its true, 'ma lu ru hu kou'.

besides coaching ri, bazgym & reese her item for the talent competition, i've got 2 other coaching commitments now... i'm helping meiling with the 'baby' group at he laoshi & qiao laoshi's club at RI on sunday mornings... the kids are about 3-4 yrs old and so adorable! im taking them with meiling for 6 weeks cos the regular coach, kaiying, is going for an exchange programme. today i helped christine at henry park with the C compulsory girls... i judged them on every event then took them for beam... quite alright la... see if i have time to go down next week, & mr teo asked if i could help with the optional girls during competition if he needs to judge... thats about all i can think of saying for now... seeyou again!